Checking in: quit ARV drugs again

 Posted by on July 5, 2013 at 8:34 am
Jul 052013
Checking in: quit ARV drugs again

Gawd forbid this period of inactivity be mistaken as some sort of ill omen. What I can say is that I’m alive and doing well by most measures that matter. I am struggling with fatigue, and depression, which may help explain my absence online.

I quit the low-dose darunavir monotherapy on May 29, almost exactly one year after I had restarted ARVs. I am satisfied with, if not excited about the “numbers”, which I will update in a future post, along with additional news about my health and medical status.

Jan 312013
Just another tease

Here’s another short outtake from the pre-show walkthrough that John Grosso and I had in a G+ Hangout On Air (HOA) earlier this week for tomorrow evening’s Rainbow Show. Live stream begins at 7 pm CST.     Please drop in to view the show live, and ask questions via the comment stream on YouTube or Google+. The […more]

Hang out with me on Friday

 Posted by on January 30, 2013 at 2:12 pm
Jan 302013
Hang out with me on Friday

Remember when Google+ was launched more than a year ago to compete in the social networking arena with giants like Facebook? You don’t?  Well, you’re not alone. Despite our love/hate relationship with Facebook, few of us who had grown accustomed to that place could find the time and energy to embrace yet another site for […more]

Westboro Baptist Church: whining for attention

 Posted by on December 26, 2012 at 2:02 pm
Dec 262012
Westboro Baptist Church: whining for attention

Once again, the crazy attention whores at Westboro Baptist Church are threatening to do more than just picket funerals. On their website,, this morning was the following message: “WBC has suffered unrelieved reproach for warning you. Now, we will happily assist in the administration of the universal outpouring of God’s wrath, which shall imminently […more]

Dear Momma

 Posted by on May 13, 2012 at 2:43 am
May 132012
Dear Momma

Dear Momma,

I’ve been thinking about you so much since you’ve been here. Yes, I thought about you a lot when you were in Colorado, too. Or in a pickup truck and travel trailer with Poppa. Or living in that incredible home you and he built “on the hill”—El Shadmir. I’m even recalling memories from Colby and the farm.

You know, when Poppa was dying, I remember promising him that we would do everything possible to make sure you were ok. That you would live as good, happy and healthy life as we could possibly manage, and that if you ran out of money, we’d even make sure you get through that. I don’t know how many of the other sibs had a similar conversation and/or commitment, but I think it was most of us. He was just sure no one else knew you well enough—like him—to be up to the job.

More crap from sockpuppet trolls – edited and updated

 Posted by on April 29, 2012 at 8:47 am
Apr 292012
More crap from sockpuppet trolls - edited and updated

UPDATE April 29,2012 This is a rewrite of a post I made almost two weeks ago. After exchanging a series of emails, followed by a more than hour-long sincere telephone conversation with JTD yesterday afternoon, I am now convinced that the comments posted below were not made by him. It is past time to end […more]

The F word

 Posted by on April 19, 2012 at 6:00 am
Apr 192012
The F word

Enough already with the critics and detractors. I haven’t been doing a very good job lately of keeping current with documenting my personal story, which was and is one of the primary purposes of this blog.

Despite the gruesome pictures from an earlier post, I am not currently experiencing any horribly disfiguring outbreaks, lumps or other obvious manifestations of poor health. The skin on my left leg has healed nicely and is completely intact, with no breaks, scabs or sores, for the first time in more than a year. The mystery lump on the right side of my face, under my jaw, has shrunk considerably, though I can still detect it. My smile is still crooked, due to what I assume is now permanent facial nerve damage resulting from Bell’s palsy. I also have a few persistent skin sores on my shoulders and back that are resisting healing.

I can fall asleep anywhere, anytime.

Other than these minor nuisances, my body seems fine, for the most part, and people who have known me for some time, assure me that I “look good”. What is not so obvious is the extreme fatigue (the F-word),

Confessions of a heretic AIDS dissident

 Posted by on April 11, 2012 at 6:36 am
Apr 112012
Confessions of a heretic AIDS dissident

You might not know it from reading the comments left here on my blog, but there are more than a few AIDS dissidents who really don’t like how I think or what I write about.

There’s a whole thread on a very popular Facebook page called “Rethinking AIDS”, discussing my open letter to Dora. Last I looked, that thread had nearly 100 comments, and very few of those comments were about Dora, Ruggiero or the defense of academic freedom.

No, the gist of the thread was whether or not I am in “the AIDS Zone.” It seems that because I did not use “air quotes” around the term “HIV disease”, I’m not really an AIDS dissident. Others took issue with my post for daring to publish that some AIDS Rethinkers hold a very narrow view about “HIV” and “AIDS”, while others of us are merely “questioning” the whole affair. None of them chose to comment directly to me here.

Some of the most visible and vocal Rethinkers seem intent on imposing their own “beliefs” (another loaded term that deserves quotes) on the entire movement. There has long been a tendency to try to impose a sort of litmus test to determine whether or not one is a true “AIDS dissident”.

Since I first met the AIDS dissident community via the AIDS Myth Exposed forums—since renamed Questioning AIDS—several years ago, I’ve become aware of several of the various factions, distinctive personalities and divisions within that broad group. Now I’m finding it ironic just how guilty some of these people are at their own version of “bone-pointing”.

Talking to my (inner) self – Part 2

 Posted by on December 23, 2011 at 10:34 am
Dec 232011
Talking to my (inner) self – Part 2

I briefly mentioned in my intro that I’ve at least dabbled with self-hypnosis, meditation, neuro-feedback and other modalities of healing involving the subconscious mind. I say dabble, because I don’t feel like I’ve devoted enough time and effort to any of these things to consider myself very experienced. My conscious mind is usually so hyper-active […more]